Fresh Ink

So, people have been asking about the significance of my new tattoo...which I got on 10/1/10 on my right wrist.  The dove is a symbol of God's love for you, or in the hebrew word, agape. I've been Christian for as long as I can remember, but recently I've been more on track with my faith then ever.  The easy answer is that it is a symbol of my religion which will always be a part of me.

But its more than that.  My grandmother passed away last year on August 20th, 2009.  Dealing with her death was one of the hardest things I ever had to do.  I don't care if its selfish of me, and I know that ulitmately she was out of pain and in a better place, but I didn't want to let her go, I wanted her to stay here with me.  I probably took it the hardest of anyone in my family.  I cried every single day for 2 months...until a sermon on Agape at church.  The point of the sermon was complex, but it felt good to begin to let go of my grief.

Originally, I wanted to do a white ink tattoo.  And I thought about it and researched it for a long while.  It wasn't until last week when I had a series of odd dreams.  One of which was me getting the tattoo, and agreeing to black ink.  Which lead me to a thought out-impulsive Friday where I just finally did it.  And I placed it on my pulse line, because not only will my religion always be a part of me, but so will my grandmother.  Both helped shape me to be the person I am today, and I will never let go of either.